If you’re a regular reader of Super Veebs, you may have noticed that it’s been pretty quiet around here lately. So quiet that you probably thought I had taken a blogging break in lieu of fully enjoying the holiday season. Well, I hate to say it, but you’d be wrong.
The cold hard truth is that I just didn’t feel like writing. I had no ideas, no drive, no inspiration, and zero f**ks to give.
Sometimes I get writer’s block and it literally strikes out of nowhere, but this time I felt as if everything in me had suffered a block. I didn’t want to leave the house (except for work, obviously), I didn’t want to eat, I didn’t want to socialize (when do I ever feel like socializing, though?), and most alarmingly, I didn’t want to read. Not wanting to read is bloody scary in my world. That’s how I knew something was wrong.
We’re now knee-deep in December and I still haven’t figured out what’s been eating me. It may have just been me feeling overwhelmed with it all. This Christmas has been remarkably different compared to every other Christmas in my adult life. I found it harder to get started this year, harder to get in the mood as it were. I felt mega-restricted when it came to Christmas shopping this year (because, hello mortgage payments), so it took me a good long while to get into the festive spirit.
I got into the bad habit of obsessing over my blog numbers and stats, too, which ended up sucking a lot of joy out of my writing life. The simple truth is that my numbers
were are dire and I started thinking there was really no point in me continuing to blog. I was getting no page views, no shares, no likes, and no comments (which really got me down because I always leave comments on the blog posts I read). What’s the point in continuing to do something that absolutely no one was appreciating?
Blogging almost started to feel like a form of punishment. So I stopped.
But now I’m back and I hope to soon see a light at the end of the tunnel. I think it would be too much to ask to want to see my numbers increase dramatically, but maybe slowly they’ll do just that. Like all things in life, I’ve just got to be patient. In the meantime, though, I’ll continue blogging but I’m not 100% sold on keeping up a regular posting schedule – especially at least for the remainder of this month.
I hope you’re all having a marvelous December and a suitably festive holiday season!
(and dear god please leave me a comment down below!)