Why I’ve Been Away & What I Plan On Doing Next

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If you’re a regular reader of Super Veebs, you may have noticed that it’s been pretty quiet around here lately. So quiet that you probably thought I had taken a blogging break in lieu of fully enjoying the holiday season. Well, I hate to say it, but you’d be wrong.

The cold hard truth is that I just didn’t feel like writing. I had no ideas, no drive, no inspiration, and zero f**ks to give.

Sometimes I get writer’s block and it literally strikes out of nowhere, but this time I felt as if everything in me had suffered a block. I didn’t want to leave the house (except for work, obviously), I didn’t want to eat, I didn’t want to socialize (when do I ever feel like socializing, though?), and most alarmingly, I didn’t want to read. Not wanting to read is bloody scary in my world. That’s how I knew something was wrong.

We’re now knee-deep in December and I still haven’t figured out what’s been eating me. It may have just been me feeling overwhelmed with it all. This Christmas has been remarkably different compared to every other Christmas in my adult life. I found it harder to get started this year, harder to get in the mood as it were. I felt mega-restricted when it came to Christmas shopping this year (because, hello mortgage payments), so it took me a good long while to get into the festive spirit.

I got into the bad habit of obsessing over my blog numbers and stats, too, which ended up sucking a lot of joy out of my writing life. The simple truth is that my numbers were are dire and I started thinking there was really no point in me continuing to blog. I was getting no page views, no shares, no likes, and no comments (which really got me down because I always leave comments on the blog posts I read). What’s the point in continuing to do something that absolutely no one was appreciating?

Blogging almost started to feel like a form of punishment. So I stopped.

But now I’m back and I hope to soon see a light at the end of the tunnel. I think it would be too much to ask to want to see my numbers increase dramatically, but maybe slowly they’ll do just that. Like all things in life, I’ve just got to be patient. In the meantime, though, I’ll continue blogging but I’m not 100% sold on keeping up a regular posting schedule – especially at least for the remainder of this month.

I hope you’re all having a marvelous December and a suitably festive holiday season!

(and dear god please leave me a comment down below!)

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22 thoughts on “Why I’ve Been Away & What I Plan On Doing Next

  1. I’m sad to hear you’re facing this kind of brick wall when it comes to blogging. I know exactly what you mean when you talk about stats, and how other blogs seem to be insta-popular after only a few months. I was getting down, too, and then I started hiding my stats. I told myself that I didn’t care, but of course I did, and then after a few months I started caring less.

    Anyway, I wish I had some advice and encouragement, except to say I ALWAYS look forward to what you’re writing about next. I’m not a good blog reader because I tend to binge-read – when I click on a blog, I like to settle in for a bit to see what’s going on.

    Please don’t give up! You had talked about writing about some classic film themes, and to that I say, “Yes, please!”

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  3. Thanks for this post Vanessa, as I have been going through the same thing with my blog. I’ve got a big old pile of books (read) to write about but I do nothing. Questioning why I do my blog, the pressure it adds to my life and lacking anything to say. Good to know I’m not alone. I may have to do a similar post just to explain my absence to my readers.
    You’re an inspiration and a spark for me to get back to it.
    Enjoy the small things in the season.
    Deborah

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    1. Oh wow, I don’t think I’ve ever been called an inspiration before! Thank you, that’s terribly kind! Out of all the books you’ve read recently, which one was your favourite? And which one was a disappointment?

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      1. You are! I quoted you on my blog – BookBarmy.com. Let’s see my favorite book is 84 Charing Cross Road (pretty obvious) but then again, it is my favorite of all time. I found Exit West practically unreadable…
        See review on my blog for my honest disappointment. Still concerned about Dave at Wilde Reads. Other book bloggers who also follow him have contacted me too. Lots of people are worried and miss him.

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  4. Here’s to getting that spark back! I really enjoyed your blog, and especially enjoy your thoughts on classic film! Cheers to you and your loved ones during the holidays!

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    1. Thank you, Larry! Actually, I’ve been thinking that I should write another classic film-related post on here soon. Any requests?

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  5. Missed you veebs! Keep up the writing! Xxx

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  6. Well, I haven’t been liking or commenting lately because I’ve been too busy to keep up with any of the blogs I follow. When I went to look, I was amazed at how many posts you’ve made in the past two months! If this represents a “lull” for you, you’re a very prolific blogger. I hope you’re having a good Friday, and that your holidays are all you could want from them.

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    1. That’s okay, no need to apologize. Sometimes life just gets in the way, y’know? Especially around this time of the year. I hope you have a wonderful holiday season, too. Enjoy!

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  7. Sorry you’ve been feeling bogged down by everything. I always look forward to reading your stuff. Hopefully things will turn around for you friend!

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    1. I hope so too, Dustin. Hopefully this is the end of the lull period – and if it isn’t, that’s okay too.

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  8. Reblogged this on Discovering Dustin and commented:
    My friend Veebs has some thoughts. You should give her a follow. She’s brilliant! Much better (and consistent) content then I turn out!

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  9. Try not to get too fixated on numbers of followers, comments or likes. I don’t have many of either myself on my blog, but it doesn’t worry me, nor will it stop me writing. I write because I enjoy it….not for the glory of X number of followers. A break (a short break) may be what you need to recharge your batteries and burst back better than ever. Don’t stop blogging though. I enjoy your posts!

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    1. I used to blog solely for my own enjoyment, but over time, it became all about the numbers and I’m not particularly proud about that. I guess it’s because I constantly see bloggers’ popularity explode online seemingly overnight and I can’t help thinking to myself “why can’t that be me?” Sad really, but I’m sure I’ll get over it eventually. Thank you so much for commenting!

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  10. Nice to hear from you. I’ve been blogging on and off since 2003 and I only do it when it brings me joy. I hope you’ve been enjoying some (free) holiday cheer. Looking at lights, making hot chocolate, listening to carols, watching movies. I like the blogs where they aren’t spending since, these days, with influencers driving everything, that’s a rarity.

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    1. Oh yes, I’ve been watching tons of Christmas movies and TV specials haha! It is, afterall, the most wonderful time of the year! And you’re so right about influencers driving consumerism and materialism – it’s scary how out of control it’s gotten.

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  11. Andrew FitzSimons December 7, 2018 — 11:45 AM

    It sounds like you might be suffering a bout of depression. I go through that a TON. No motivation, not interested in the things you love and enjoy. Have you felt this way before?

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    1. Perhaps low level depression, yes. It’s been years since my last bout, so when it started coming around again out of nowhere, it was very alarming. I’m sure it’ll all be alright, though. Thank you for commenting! I hope you’re doing well, Andrew.

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  12. Vanessa, worrying over comments in a blog is, as Herman Wouk might say, a mug’s game. Posting on a blog is like tossing a letter in a bottle out into ocean. Don’t expect it to be answered any time soon.

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    1. I guess the fact that I always make sure to leave comments on other people’s blogs when I was getting none in return is what really set me off. I need to relax a bit more, surely.

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